Wanna go for a ice cream??

I was just going through this forward titled 'Precious Friends', and a picture got my eye.

Just a glance at this innocent snap and i remembered my best friend Hetuk. Two years back, when we were in the last sem of our college, we both loved having thick shakes..Very frequently plans were made to have them at A to Z(our favorite ice cream parlor) Even today, whenever we meet, always the thick shakes are remembered. He'll always remember my favorite flavor, chocolate chips.

Looking at this snap, I wish I had taken such a cute photograph of us, and kept a fonding memory of those times!!! I miss those beautiful times, wish we could enjoy one now..

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Finding Support

I wrote earlier that I am suffering from endometriosis (cyst found in my abdomen). It was one of the lowest and depressing stage of my life. You suddenly hear doctors talking about removing your ovaries..You are still single, perfectly healthy. And all this happening at a very fast pace. If that was not enough, you hear your parents talking about a possiblity of cancer.. I almost lost it.

Amidst all the darkness, I found a yahoo group for this disease, I joined it. It was the one of the best things I think I ever did. It opened a new door to a whole new world of information and more importantly, people like me. I read the mails of women suffering just like me, even more than me and I consider myself lucky that I didnt had to go through immense pain like them. Best part, I made friends.

My first new friend, Savi from Delhi. She was the first one to write to me after I posted in the group about my condition. I still remember how happy I was reading her reply, finding someone like me. At last I can share my pain, my worries with someone just like me. I knew a lot about tackling with this disease from her. As she was from India, the medical treatment was almost similar, so its nice to talk to her about whats the next step, when is the next check up, clarifying every small doubt and question..

A couple of days after I posted to the group, I got another reply. This was from a girl from US, Christen. While I was reading her mail, I felt like reading my own life story, thats how similar our lives were.Every small thing matched, even the post operation symptoms match.. And believe me, our birthdays are just a day apart!!! Long mails were being exchanged regarding this, and its always a pleasure reading her mails. Knowing her has made me relieved from the fact that I was too young for this disease. What happened to me exactly happened to someone else, realizing this eases half of your worries.. Talking to her lets me know what treatments are available in U.S. and what next I can do.

I can mail and tell them if I am feeling low, if I am in bad health. And always know for sure that they know what it feels like. I always get encouraging letters from them, words that have slowly removed my fear about endometriosis. Though the fear still resides, its intensity has reduced.

Thanks to these two angels.. I can now breathe freely.

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Being loved

What an overwhelming feeling being immensely cared creates.. You just cant figure what sort of emotion drives the person to care so much, say those words, have those eyes filled with emotions. I am a lecturer in a college. Every semester there is a student that has a huge crush on me. I know that by the time they pass out, it will be over.So I am not bothered much by it and its been happening for the past 2-3 sems.. But this one was seemed different. You can tell when its just a crush or something more.. And i can see that this was something more than just a mere crush. When he almost proposed, I could have embarrassed him, insulted him and done number of other things to crush his feelings, but doing that is not in my nature. I respected his feelings. And he never tried anything stupid....It stayed that way. Like other cases, this was also to be forgotten. But something changed it.. I felt sick, he called in to check how I was doing. The way in which he talked, it was so moving. After keeping the phone, I wanted to thank him for caring so much. I dont know what to name his feelings, huge respect, crush or love, but whatever it is, he masters it. Yesterday was his last day in college, he came to me.. talked for a while. We wished each other luck, and he ended with the words that he would miss me through out his life.. You can look at this thing in different perspectives. One could say that such a relation between a student and a teacher is unethical. But I say, that there was nothing wrong in this. He had obvious feelings for me, and I respected it. Its just the magnitude of his feelings that awes me.. Hope he has a good life and finds someone beautiful to share his life with..Amen

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My lovely wishes..

A talk with a friend, let me remember this song, Book Of Love by Peter Gabriel. I first heard it while watching the movie 'Shall We Dance'. Its played when Richard Gere, in a black suit with a red rose in his hands appears in a escalator to meet his wife Susan Sarandon, who is suspecting him having an affair. The scene is in a mall where Susan is working. Richard Gere gives her the rose, she is totally surprised by this gesture, and they dance a little while other co-workers look with jealous awe.. The magic of the scene will only be felt when you see the movie.

I drifted from the topic, I was talking about the song.. It goes on

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I... I love it when you read to me
And you... you can read me anything.

The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I... I love it when you sing to me
And you... you can sing me anything.

The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I... I love it when you give me things
And you...you ought to give me wedding rings

So romantic...Do listen it once. And dont you wish your love to be like this..I do

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