Saturday, November 08, 2008

Mysterious works

Simply put what God does to us..

If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient?

If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous?

If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?


Boy or Girl.. whose side are you on??

Before you start reading this one, I want you to first go and watch this video,

Hopefully, u have seen the video. I dont know why I felt so strongly about this. May be cause the difference between being a boy and a girl in a relationship is shown so beautifully in this video. Hats off to the director!! What is even more surprising is that this dynamics remain the same, whether you are in India, U.S. or any part of the world..

It reminds me of what happened to a very close friend of mine. She just got proposed by his best frnd. They had a long distance relationship. While he was out, he made lot of friends. One was special, a girl. They used to go out, shared their life and secrets, and when needed they were there for each other. In short, they were very close. So close, that when this guy announced that he was committed to his friends, they suspected that it was this girl.. No one gussed that he had a girl back home. Such was a situation.. Now this friend of mine trusted his guy, but it had a limit.. And somedays when this trust was weakened and she would ask about his relationship with this girl, it would eventually end in a fight. The boy would shout on her, ask her to stop suspecting. The girl had to let it go.. No doubt, they loved each other very much, and they r still going on strong.. But the question is what if the situation was opposite. Will they still be together?? Would the boy be able to do the same had his girl had such a close relation with another guy.. wouldnt his jealousy got the better of him and made him dump her. How much the boy says he would trust his girl, I wouldnt believe until I such a thing happen.

Coming back to the song, I have pasted portions of the lyrics, i loved...

A girl describing what a guy does

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home

What she truly feels..

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah, you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You'll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Just awesome and beautifully done.. I am a fan and a believer


Monday, October 20, 2008

Being nostalgic

It was a boring monday afternoon and I was returning home in the scorching heat. As usual, to ease the traveling i started listening to music, and the song started to play

Tu hai toh tedi medi rahe
Ulti pulti baatein
Sedhi lagthi hai
Tu hai toh joote moote vaade
Dushman ke irrade
Sache lagthe hai
Jo dil mein taare vaare de jagah
Woh tu hi hai, tu hi hai
Jo rothe rothe de hassa
Tu hi hai wahin

Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright
Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright

Saari duniya ek taraf hai
Ek taraf hai hum
Har khushi toh, dur bhage
Mil rahe hai gum
But when u smile for me
World seems all right
Yeh meri zindagi
Pal mein hi khil jaaye
Jaane kyun

Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright
Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright

Chote chote kuch palon ka
Dostana yeah
Jaane kyun ab lag raha hai
Jaana maana yeah
Coz when smile for me
World seems alright
Yeah sare pal yahin
Yun hi tham se jaaye

Jaane kyun Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright
Jaane kyun dil jantha hai
Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright

Even in that intolerable heat, hearing this song brought a smile to my face as I remembered my college friends. Yes..they are the ones being talked about in this song

This pic of my group was taken four years back. I have spent some memorable time with each n every one of them, moments I'll remeber all my life.. We were each other's best friends as well as best enemies.. Not only sharing each others joys n pains to never feel alone, but also lies and secrets to get equally embarassed. Thats how we were and are..

A couple of them have drifted away, a couple of them are now NRI's, a couple are trying to be that and a couple of them are trying to be a couple for life.. whatever be the circumstance, however geographical apart we may be, how much less we got to talk with each other due to lack of time or sometimes just laziness, we still remain very much a close nit group. Whether through direct communication or via via paths, it is still know what goes on in each other's life.

I so wish sometimes that they may be a bit close so that we could meet more often or I could go to them.. My Vanarsensa frnds.. I Miss you all..


Why am I smiling!!

Receiving flowers is always a happy moment.. but getting them from people you love is even more special. And this small bouquet of roses made my heart fill with joy for quite a few days and its memory will always heart warming..


Saturday, June 14, 2008

Have You Ever...

Have you ever cried at night,
Thinking it was bad,
Have you ever screamed out loud,
From pain that you have felt,
Have you ever stopped and looked,
At pain that you have dealt,
Have you ever questioned someone,
Of love and if its true,
Have you ever felt abused,
Or worried while you wait,
Have you ever made a big huge deal,
Over someone being late,
Have you ever had them leave,
And watched them walk away,
Have you ever thought of leaving,
But could only sit and stay,
Have you ever tried to tell them,
But didn’t know how it would go,
Have you ever been alone,
Where no one else could see,
So you sat at home remaining unknown,
having nowhere else to be.

I’ve felt this way before,
I’ve felt and dealt it all,
I’ve even lied,
I’ve even cried,
I’ve even felt the fall.
But nothing makes it better,
I wish it all would go away,
I wish it wasn’t real,
But that is not the case,
And it could never be.

P.S. I know, its in total contrast with my last post..
But hey..a day changes everything.. Cant blame me.


Saturday, February 16, 2008

To my Valentine

Having you beside me
Another perfect day
Praying you will never leave
Praying you will always stay
You and me forever and always

Vow that you will stay here
Always by my side
Life without your presence
Each day I will cry
Nothing compares to what we have
The love we possess inside
It is like an eternal flame
Never does it die
Each memory that we made
So wonderful and nice

Deeper and Deeper our love became
As the days went by
You're the reason I can touch the sky

In case you didnt notice, the first letter of every line spells HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY


Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Wanna go for a ice cream??

I was just going through this forward titled 'Precious Friends', and a picture got my eye.

Just a glance at this innocent snap and i remembered my best friend Hetuk. Two years back, when we were in the last sem of our college, we both loved having thick shakes..Very frequently plans were made to have them at A to Z(our favorite ice cream parlor) Even today, whenever we meet, always the thick shakes are remembered. He'll always remember my favorite flavor, chocolate chips.

Looking at this snap, I wish I had taken such a cute photograph of us, and kept a fonding memory of those times!!! I miss those beautiful times, wish we could enjoy one now..


Monday, January 28, 2008

Finding Support

I wrote earlier that I am suffering from endometriosis (cyst found in my abdomen). It was one of the lowest and depressing stage of my life. You suddenly hear doctors talking about removing your ovaries..You are still single, perfectly healthy. And all this happening at a very fast pace. If that was not enough, you hear your parents talking about a possiblity of cancer.. I almost lost it.

Amidst all the darkness, I found a yahoo group for this disease, I joined it. It was the one of the best things I think I ever did. It opened a new door to a whole new world of information and more importantly, people like me. I read the mails of women suffering just like me, even more than me and I consider myself lucky that I didnt had to go through immense pain like them. Best part, I made friends.

My first new friend, Savi from Delhi. She was the first one to write to me after I posted in the group about my condition. I still remember how happy I was reading her reply, finding someone like me. At last I can share my pain, my worries with someone just like me. I knew a lot about tackling with this disease from her. As she was from India, the medical treatment was almost similar, so its nice to talk to her about whats the next step, when is the next check up, clarifying every small doubt and question..

A couple of days after I posted to the group, I got another reply. This was from a girl from US, Christen. While I was reading her mail, I felt like reading my own life story, thats how similar our lives were.Every small thing matched, even the post operation symptoms match.. And believe me, our birthdays are just a day apart!!! Long mails were being exchanged regarding this, and its always a pleasure reading her mails. Knowing her has made me relieved from the fact that I was too young for this disease. What happened to me exactly happened to someone else, realizing this eases half of your worries.. Talking to her lets me know what treatments are available in U.S. and what next I can do.

I can mail and tell them if I am feeling low, if I am in bad health. And always know for sure that they know what it feels like. I always get encouraging letters from them, words that have slowly removed my fear about endometriosis. Though the fear still resides, its intensity has reduced.

Thanks to these two angels.. I can now breathe freely.


Sunday, January 20, 2008

Being loved

What an overwhelming feeling being immensely cared creates.. You just cant figure what sort of emotion drives the person to care so much, say those words, have those eyes filled with emotions.

I am a lecturer in a college. Every semester there is a student that has a huge crush on me. I know that by the time they pass out, it will be over.So I am not bothered much by it and its been happening for the past 2-3 sems.. But this one was seemed different. You can tell when its just a crush or something more.. And i can see that this was something more than just a mere crush. When he almost proposed, I could have embarrassed him, insulted him and done number of other things to crush his feelings, but doing that is not in my nature. I respected his feelings. And he never tried anything stupid....It stayed that way. Like other cases, this was also to be forgotten. But something changed it..

I felt sick, he called in to check how I was doing. The way in which he talked, it was so moving. After keeping the phone, I wanted to thank him for caring so much. I dont know what to name his feelings, huge respect, crush or love, but whatever it is, he masters it. Yesterday was his last day in college, he came to me.. talked for a while. We wished each other luck, and he ended with the words that he would miss me through out his life..

You can look at this thing in different perspectives. One could say that such a relation between a student and a teacher is unethical. But I say, that there was nothing wrong in this. He had obvious feelings for me, and I respected it. Its just the magnitude of his feelings that awes me..

Hope he has a good life and finds someone beautiful to share his life with..Amen


My lovely wishes..

A talk with a friend, let me remember this song, Book Of Love by Peter Gabriel. I first heard it while watching the movie 'Shall We Dance'. Its played when Richard Gere, in a black suit with a red rose in his hands appears in a escalator to meet his wife Susan Sarandon, who is suspecting him having an affair. The scene is in a mall where Susan is working. Richard Gere gives her the rose, she is totally surprised by this gesture, and they dance a little while other co-workers look with jealous awe.. The magic of the scene will only be felt when you see the movie.

I drifted from the topic, I was talking about the song.. It goes on

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I... I love it when you read to me
And you... you can read me anything.

The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I... I love it when you sing to me
And you... you can sing me anything.

The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I... I love it when you give me things
And ought to give me wedding rings

So romantic...Do listen it once. And dont you wish your love to be like this..I do